Melancholic Derivations

October 12, 2005

Dispirited Absolutes

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Fight the fight alone
When the world is full of victims
Dims a fading light in our souls.
Leave the peace alone
Now we all are slowly changing
Dims a fading light in our souls.

In my opinion seeing is to know
The things we hold are always first to go
And who's to say we won't end up alone?

On broken wings I'm falling and it won't be long.
The skin on me is burning by the fires of the sun.
On skinned knees I'm bleeding and it won't be long.
I've got to find that meaning and I'll search for so long.

Cry ourselves to sleep
We will sleep alone forever.
Will you lay me down
in the same place with all I love?
Mend the broken homes
Care for them they are our brothers.
Save the fading light in our souls!

In my opinion seeing is to know
What you give will always carry you
And who's to say we won't survive it too?

Set a free all
Relying on their will to make me all that I am and all I'll be.
Set a free all
We'll fall between the cracks with memories of all that I am and all I'll be.

Four church services, five cell meetings to go before everything becomes a blur.

Traveller fell apart at 7:57 PM

October 10, 2005

Doomsday Prophets

The past few years have witnessed an unprecedented rise in the number of natural disasters and more importantly, death tolls as a result of them. Coupled with last year's devastating Asian tsunami, the death tolls from recent natural disasters have been nothing short of shocking to say the least. 20,000 from last night's South Asian earthquake, another 50,000 from last month's New Orleans' disasters, 1,400 in the Guatamalan landslide and a global climate of fear brought on by terrorist sedition has contributed to the growth of doomsday prophets all across the globe.

It's been seen widely by many as the 'End of Days', referred to by the Muslims in the Qu'ran and the Christians in the Book of Revelations. People are often quick to jump at the chance of labelling an event as the precursor of doom to come so much so that they miss the implicit details which might have contributed to it. For example, due to the recent upsurge in terrorist violence, many right-wing Christian fundamentalist groups have begun labelling our new epoch an 'epoch of hatred' which will culminate in the return of Christ. They fail to see the underlying frictions the process of globalisation causes, drawing deep fissures along cultural lines. They do not take heed of three decades of United States foreign policy inconsistency resulting in widespread Muslim discontent. They prefer, instead, to lump it on religious delirium.

I'm not saying that there isn't a chance that we might actually be living in the last days. In fact, it certainly looks the part. Increasing frequency of disasters, loosening moral depravity of mankind and general sense of hopelessness being reverberated worldwide are just some of the signs which give it away. But should we not guard against being overly hysterical at the events which flood the media? Should we not learn to discern and to calmly watch and wait for the End? The Christians in A.D. 999 truly believed that they were to see the Apocalypse only to be proven wrong. The year 1999 heralded doom for many and yet failed to produce returns on those prophecies. So when does this supposed 'End' take effect?

Watch and wait, but don't hold your breath. My guess is, it isn't in our lifetimes.

Traveller fell apart at 12:59 AM

October 06, 2005

Cynicalities Resurfacing

It's been a thorn in my side, a rabid dog that refuses to go away. The problems which go on mounting and contribute to my skepticism at the intentions of the church don't seem to take a backseat. It's funny then, how things have led to this point. It's a point commonly called 'breaking point' and one which I don't enjoy being caught in.

There are people in the church who do not seem to practice what they preach. Too many times, new relationships begun in tandem have been frowned on and subsequently spurned. The leaders, or so they call themselves, make it a point to judge and quibble over their church members' private affairs. To make matters worse, it's hardly a good testimony when the very thing your leader asks you not to do, he commits himself. Shocking, to say the least.

Cynicism also begins to creep in when you realise that the only reason that people want you at church outings is for your car and your ability to drive people back home. I think Hope Church faces a lack of independent people and far too many dependent people; half of which are not even grateful for the service the drivers provide. If these people were really intent on going to church, they'd wake up earlier to take the bus service instead of taking their own sweet time when the driver is downstairs waiting.

I think I've tolerated enough. It's come to this and I'm not going to regret this at all I feel. It is time to leave, to search for greener pastures in order that I might not suffer anymore in anguish. It is time to commit, but commit myself towards hedonism.

Traveller fell apart at 12:31 AM


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Leave the peace alone Now we all are slowly changing Dims a fading light in our souls. In my opinion seeing is to know The things we hold are always first to go And who's to say we won't end up alone? On broken wings I'm falling and it won't be long. The skin on me is burning by the fires of the sun. On skinned knees I'm bleeding and it won't be long. I've got to find that meaning and I'll search for so long. Cry ourselves to sleep We will sleep alone forever. Will you lay me down in the same place with all I love? Mend the broken homes Care for them they are our brothers. Save the fading light in our souls! In my opinion seeing is to know What you give will always carry you And who's to say we won't survive it too? Set a free all Relying on their will to make me all that I am and all I'll be. Set a free all We'll fall between the cracks with memories of all that I am and all I'll be. Four church services, five cell meetings to go before everything becomes a blur. Traveller fell apart at 7:57 PM October 10, 2005 Doomsday Prophets The past few years have witnessed an unprecedented rise in the number of natural disasters and more importantly, death tolls as a result of them. Coupled with last year's devastating Asian tsunami, the death tolls from recent natural disasters have been nothing short of shocking to say the least. 20,000 from last night's South Asian earthquake, another 50,000 from last month's New Orleans' disasters, 1,400 in the Guatamalan landslide and a global climate of fear brought on by terrorist sedition has contributed to the growth of doomsday prophets all across the globe. It's been seen widely by many as the 'End of Days', referred to by the Muslims in the Qu'ran and the Christians in the Book of Revelations. People are often quick to jump at the chance of labelling an event as the precursor of doom to come so much so that they miss the implicit details which might have contributed to it. For example, due to the recent upsurge in terrorist violence, many right-wing Christian fundamentalist groups have begun labelling our new epoch an 'epoch of hatred' which will culminate in the return of Christ. They fail to see the underlying frictions the process of globalisation causes, drawing deep fissures along cultural lines. They do not take heed of three decades of United States foreign policy inconsistency resulting in widespread Muslim discontent. They prefer, instead, to lump it on religious delirium. I'm not saying that there isn't a chance that we might actually be living in the last days. In fact, it certainly looks the part. Increasing frequency of disasters, loosening moral depravity of mankind and general sense of hopelessness being reverberated worldwide are just some of the signs which give it away. But should we not guard against being overly hysterical at the events which flood the media? Should we not learn to discern and to calmly watch and wait for the End? The Christians in A.D. 999 truly believed that they were to see the Apocalypse only to be proven wrong. The year 1999 heralded doom for many and yet failed to produce returns on those prophecies. So when does this supposed 'End' take effect? Watch and wait, but don't hold your breath. My guess is, it isn't in our lifetimes. Traveller fell apart at 12:59 AM October 06, 2005 Cynicalities Resurfacing It's been a thorn in my side, a rabid dog that refuses to go away. The problems which go on mounting and contribute to my skepticism at the intentions of the church don't seem to take a backseat. It's funny then, how things have led to this point. It's a point commonly called 'breaking point' and one which I don't enjoy being caught in. There are people in the church who do not seem to practice what they preach. Too many times, new relationships begun in tandem have been frowned on and subsequently spurned. The leaders, or so they call themselves, make it a point to judge and quibble over their church members' private affairs. To make matters worse, it's hardly a good testimony when the very thing your leader asks you not to do, he commits himself. Shocking, to say the least. Cynicism also begins to creep in when you realise that the only reason that people want you at church outings is for your car and your ability to drive people back home. I think Hope Church faces a lack of independent people and far too many dependent people; half of which are not even grateful for the service the drivers provide. If these people were really intent on going to church, they'd wake up earlier to take the bus service instead of taking their own sweet time when the driver is downstairs waiting. I think I've tolerated enough. It's come to this and I'm not going to regret this at all I feel. It is time to leave, to search for greener pastures in order that I might not suffer anymore in anguish. It is time to commit, but commit myself towards hedonism. Traveller fell apart at 12:31 AM