October 09, 2004

There was once a boy, whom as a six-year-old child put his trust in the Lord Jesus. That same boy grew up having a good church-going family and strong encouragement from his parents. That same boy grew up listening to bible stories and the virtues which Jesus preached to the multitudes in 20 A.D. That same boy reached adolescence.

Adolescence was never going to be easy. It was a time in life where change and identity where crucial and centerpiece to his pride. He was soon caught up in the ways of the world despite everything he underwent as a child. He went after girls for the wrong reasons, he lied to his parents, he cheated on some tests, he backstabbed his friends to get higher and most importantly, he left God behind in his life.

That boy grew increasingly spiteful and angsty. He was sure that Christianity was for the weak and helpless. Delving into various schools of men's wisdom didn't help matters. They only served to make him worldly-wise, proud and mysoginistic. He saw the world as a big cauldron of hate and apathy which would only be fuelled on by further apathy and hate. Despite all his sinful ways, God waited by the wayside, always hoping that someday, he'd return as His child.

The loss of his father came as a shock which he found too hard to handle. Suddenly, that cauldron of hate which he had always envisioned seemed to have spilled over into his life, drowning his thoughts and emotions. In this seeming darkness, he turned to darkness and endeavoured further through sin and self-destruction. He committed various acts which would have shamed both his earthly and Heavenly Father. And yet, still, God waited by the wayside, always hoping that someday, he'd return as His child.

The boy, now a young gentleman, picked up a copy of the "Devil's Apocrypha" one day, and began reading and sympathizing with his Heavenly Father's enemy. He adopted the attitudes and practices which lay behind the seeming "wisdom" of the book. He condemned the Bible and everything it stood for. He attacked and humiliated Christians whom God had sent to fight for him. He indulged in self-praise and self-love. And yet, still, God waited by the wayside, always hoping that someday, he'd return as His child.

That young gentleman soon found that his past sins had caught up with him. They were in a way, the reason for his compulsion to leave. The ensuing change brought about much resentment and uncertainty within him and he resolved to shut the door on all emotions and friendships. But something changed this time. God moved, and sent him companionship and fellowship. God moved, and sent him a sheperd to guide and protect him from the ways of the world. God moved, and touched his heart so deep that he could no longer deny or blaspheme against God. And yet, despite acknowledging God, this young adult still struggles with his past worldly ways. And yet, still, God waits by the wayside, always hoping someday, he'd return as His child.

That young man stands here today, amazed at his Heavenly Father's love and patience. That young man stands here today, shocked on hindsight at what he had accomplished during his time as an adolescent. However, that young man stands here today, determined never to stray from his Heavenly Father ever again. That young man wants God to take his world apart.

Jars Of Clay - Worlds Apart

I am the only one to blame for this
Somehow it all ends up the same
Soaring on the wings of selfish pride
I float too high
And like Icarus, I collide
With a world I try so hard to leave behind
To rid myself of all but love
To give and die

To turn away and not become
Another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves
More deeply than the oceans
More abundant than the tears
Of a world embracing every heartache

Can I be the one to sacrifice
Or grip the spear and watch the blood and water flow

(To love you) Take my world apart
(To need you) I am on my knees
(To love you) Take my world apart
(To need you) Broken on my knees

Said and done, I stand alone
Amongst remains of a life I should not own
It takes all I am to believe
In the mercy that covers me

Did you really have to die for me
All I am for all you are
Because what I need and what I believe, are worlds apart

I look beyond the empty cross
Forgetting what my life has cost
And wipe away the crimson stains
And dull the nails that still remain
More and more I need you now
I owe you more each passing hour
Battles between grace and pride
I gave up not so long ago
So steal my heart and take the pain
And wash the feet and cleanse my pride
Take the selfish, take the weak
And all the things I cannot hide
Take the beauty, take my tears
My sin-soaked heart, make it yours
Take my world all apart
Take it now, take it now
And serve the ones that I despise
Speak the words I can't deny
Watch the world I used to love
Fall to dust and blow away
I look beyond the empty cross
Forgetting what my life has cost
Wipe away the crimson stains
And dull the nails that still remain
So steal my heart and take the pain
Take the selfish, take the weak
And all the things I cannot hide
Take the beauty, take my tears
Take my world apart, take my world apart
I pray, I pray, I pray
Take my world apart
Halleluia

Lord, thank you for never giving up on me. Take my world apart, change me. Amen.



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